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10/07/2008
10/06/2008
My Empire of Dirt
I don't really have any creative way to start this post and have honestly sat here for a while trying to come up with a clever way to begin. However, despite much avail, I have nothing, so what you're reading is what you get. Of course, looking back at what I just wrote I actually have invented a start to this post, but you still have no idea what I plan to write about so I'll just get into it.
A few days ago I met with a person (whom will remain anonymous) to discuss some issues we were having. Like any male human being I knew going into this discussion that I was right, they were jacked up and that I was gracing them by even meeting them to discuss this matter. They actually didn't want to meet at all, but I didn't want to discuss the situation over text. I still think that problem solving that way is asinine. I met with them and we began to discuss the problems at hand and the more I let them talk and share their point of view I began to realize just how much of a jerk I'd been. I'm talking absolute cretin. What I had subconsciously done to this person was horrid. I mentally destroyed them and didn't even know it.
As they began to bring back situation after situation I began to remember what had happened for real, and not just what I had stored in my memory. I had blocked stuff out without even realizing it. I had a marred perspective of the truth. I wasn't being manipulated into thinking that and I wasn't being convinced that I was just wrong, I really began to understand what had happened. Now, these problems were not all my fault, but it was much less of a 50/50 problem and more of a 90/10 problem.
Something I've learned to do and am quite good at is turning off. I can completely shut down and disinvolve myself from any emotion that I feel. If I get upset about an ridiculous situation, I can choose to completely shut it out and forget about it. While this is a good trait to have, I've become so good at it that I completely shut people out of my life. If I've decided that I'm done with a conversation, I will shut the person out of it and forget it immediately. If I don't want to be somewhere anymore, no matter what the context, I will leave. I've been know to disappear from social gatherings numerous times. This is exactly what I did to this person on multiple occasions. I shut them out again and again and again and didn't even realize that I had done so. The worst part is I didn't even care that I had done so. In the past I would have brushed them off and shut them out again, but this time after I left I took some time to actually think about it. I concluded that I single handedly destroyed a friendship and scarred someone with zero remorse. I am Jack's twisted stomach.
Its only after realizing all of this that I see what a mistake I've made. I guess that's what generally happens though. The strange thing is that it took me this long to see. Six months. Why? Why did I have to destroy someone to realize that I was even doing it? I fully doubt that the person I'm referring to will ever read this post, and I honestly don't care if they do. This isn't a plea for their forgiveness or a understanding. This is me putting my thoughts on a page so I can come back and see and remember what I did. The never ending path of maturity is difficult and full of briars and snags. The only thing to do is bandage the wounds that I received and keep going. I someday hope I can rectify the whole thing, right now it looks grim, but as pessimistic as I usually am, I always have hope for people. I don't know why, but I do.
So to the person whom I wronged. I am truly sorry.
09/24/2008
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08/13/2008
Dear Apple...
The iPhone 3G and Mobile ME are the two worst products you could have ever created. Their release was far too early and far too complicated. The affordability slapped on the new iPhone has caused mass amounts of idiots to come and sign their lives away on your glorious product.
While I love the iPhone and all the geekiness that goes with it, making this version cheaper has done nothing but harm to your loyal customers. Not only has this affected the coolness factor that so many of us elitist snobs enjoy, but it has ravaged your customer service phone lines, representatives and overall appeal.
It is almost impossible to enter an Apple retail store now due to the mass amounts of mindless PC using drones that want to look cool by owning an iPhone. I cannot take in my poor Macbook to the Genius Bar to have the battery checked due to this madness. In the past when I've made an appointment, there was no problem making it for the same day, later in the afternoon. I made one this morning at 10:00 am, and am forced to wait until late afternoon tomorrow to even see someone. I tried to call to talk to someone, but all the lines are held up because of the... LEGIONS OF MORONS MEANDERING ABOUT AND HOLDING UP ALL TECHNICAL SUPPORT.
Please go back being Apple, trying to be Microsoft is just a bad idea.
About the author: Shawn is a cynical, and die hard Macintosh user. He expects his machines to function they way they are suppose to without a hitch, which is why he does not use Windows. A rant against Microsoft would be extremely explicit and vulgar and could have him arrested for malicious threats.
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05/01/2008
Vox Hunt: Dream Pet
Show us a picture of the pet you'd most like to have in your life.
I'm certainly not a fan of dogs, I rather despise them so... but, a Bulldog is something less of a dog and more of a awesome.
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